Dear fellow citizens of Awesome Land,
I have absolutely, irrevocably, once-and-for-all, DON’T-EVEN-TRY- TO-STOP-ME decided to move to New York in August for law school. I realize that many of you will be like, “But Laurie, I thought you absolutely, irrevocably, once-and-for-all decided not to go to– ?”
And I will be like: “Shut it.”
Because, dudes, this decision has been totally hard. This is probably the most major (can something be “most” major?) life decision I’ve had to make so far and I’ve been working y’all like spectators at a ping pong match. And I’m sorry.
Anyway, I’ve finally made my decision (I think) and I feel really good about it. I’m excited about moving to New York, I’m excited about studying law, I’m excited about working and studying on a global level (that sounds like a phrase lifted from one of the university’s brochures), I’m excited about working toward something concrete and substantial, and I’m excited about doing good things for people and for the environment (right now, I’m most interested in studying international human rights and environmental law).
I’m not excited about the stress of moving and trying to find an apartment in New York, I’m not excited about going $100-150k in debt, and I’m not excited about spending three years hanging out with people who want to be lawyers when they grow up. Oh, and I’m not excited about the scary amount of work that I will allegedly have to do. Well, maybe a little bit.
For awhile, I was feeling that the risk of failure was too great and the cost of that failure too high and I felt like I still wanted a few more years to be young and free and irresponsible. But then I realized that sometimes great risks are the unpleasant side effects of great opportunities and I was starting to suspect that being “free and irresponsible” may not be all it’s cracked up to be. For one thing, I was having trouble coming up with ideas of what I wanted to do with all of my free and irresponsible time– all of my ideas seemed either expensive or short-sighted or both.
This is definitely a risk and it’s definitely going to be a lot of hard work but I feel confident (at this moment) that I’m making the right decision.
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